Makoa and Ka'imi have been asking to sleep in the room with me (they've been on the couch/bed) so last night we set up "beds" on the floor. Ka'imi kept telling me that he wanted to sleep in my bed because he's scared of the dark. I helped him say a prayer, and then held his hand as he fell asleep on the floor next to my bed. They all (3) slept through the whole night and I woke up feeling rested at 6am.
I was not exceptionally comfortable laying the way I was to hold his hand, but I knew that moment was precious. I know he will not always be scared of the dark and want to sleep in my bed. I know one day, soon, he will grow up and be able to handle those kinds of situations on his own.
I want him to be a problem solver and independent, even if that means he won't need me. It's a difficult thing to admit and accept. There is nothing like the selfless love of a mother who raises her child not to need her. My mother is such a woman. I hope to be like her in so many ways. Seeing as my oldest is only 5 years old I can hardly say whether or not I'm doing it right.
I hope to raise my boys to be kind and fiercely faithful husbands. I hope to teach them (along with Cameron's help) to be loving, firm and righteous fathers.
I will be on the lookout for teachings from our Priesthood leaders (General Conference talks etc...) with specific instructions on how to do this. If you have any references, please share them with me! I know these values need to be taught now. I know with Heavenly Father's help (I am relying on him for a lot of this), my boys can and will reach their potential, even if it isn't in the way I think it should be.
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